Abused Mind

~The taste of tar fills my mind when I think of u. Blackness spreads across my thoughts and flowers die afraid of your walk. Hiding in the darkness of the cloak I wear to keep from u, while living loudly in a world that doesn’t know your truth. The distant cries of pain in the world u created has made it hard to sleep at night as your words sting. The slaps of cruelty from your mind as your words fill time creates a moment of true despair and a wish that u weren’t near. Hiding openly in the night and wishing u weren’t truly frightening, is just a part of the illusion that always creates confusion. Not afraid of u but more afraid of time. All the time u stole from me as I hid and let u be. Now it’s time for me to come out of hiding and stop being closed off to all the findings. Know without a doubt that your cruelty isn’t right.

Abused Mind NLSmith 2017

Fire; My Pet Flame


~As bright as it burned, it was hotter then hell. It wasn’t the sun and it just didn’t fail. It bit me really quickly when I held out my hand. My little pet flame was the fire in the dark that no one could claim. I took care of my pet and never let it get wet. It couldn’t go out and kept burning through the dark. My pet fire kept me safe at night cuz no one would ever walk across the flames of life. My pet came in colors fancier then the flame. Some burned all night, some were just a single flame. I have many pets that I love so proud, but this isn’t the pet that u can take out in any type of crowd.

NLSmith June 2018

Fire; My Pet Flame

Let Go


Reminiscing to a time of life before you. I call out in the distance and remember how things brewed. We had a history of love that captured the hearts of two fools. Now we’re lost in a tranquil ecstasy only living together through our dreams. This love we created and nurtured through time, wildly passionate affected created a bond. Bound by obligation to the world that won’t exist if we combine, so we sail into the distance…separate ways, separate lives.


via Daily Prompt: Permit

She was quiet and relentless about her current scene. The spell was cast, the day had past and she would permit no one in to see. Her tragedy was real but the way life was being seen, it was in her past that love was cast and no one seen her words. She permits the view and no one sees the sights. It’s in her might to walk with light and leave the dark behind. She cast a different spell this time, one that would last through time. She must resists the single twists that time has cast in her sights. Love was on her mind, but hate was ravaging her heart. Spells were cast from a distant mass and truths were sent to hide.  The light was no where near, but time was all she feared it was running fast and not in the past but the present daylight went unfound.


Happy Holidays

Been a hectic few weeks and I haven’t had enough time to edit and post. I have been cruising through and reading here and there. These holidays have had me tied up between cooking and working and writing ideas and poems but leaves no time to post much. I’m penning this while I have these few moments of downtime at work. Hopefully with the new year I’ll be better at my time management and get to post more regularly.

Meanwhile, I wanted to take a moment to wish u all a very happy and safe New Year’s and hope u all had a good holiday season. I know some people struggle during this time, I’m one of them but there is a rainbow in the distance and nothing stopping it but a thought. If we give nurishment to the positive, we are more likely to get that positive back. 

Take care and share the smiles!!! We all need that in a world that most times shares more hate than anyone needs. Smile power always rules!!! Keep it up or keep it to yourself!!! See u around!!!

Nicole L. 


Relate is something I can’t do very well
Like the time I tried to fit in and boy did I fail
It was a crazy dream I tried to live out
But I fell off a cloud and didn’t take flight
Relate is a word that covers me with fears
As I turn around and covet my tears
Drowning in a world that relates with a few
Because the majority doesn’t try fit in our shoes
We hide in plain sight and don’t blend in right
But we fight for existence and often we take flight
We argue with our minds not to blend in too much
But we must blend in, so we don’t lose all touch
It’s exhausting I admit trying to just be myself
But I can’t very well act like anyone else
Some people are good at the fifty fake out
Some struggle within
Some turn the lights out
We all have our ways that we cope to relate
Like the guy down the street who tries just imitates
Or the girl in the back with the crazy thoughts
That she needs to be covered in heavy makeup
Or the guy who feels he needs a beard to fit in
Like the maze that go through to relate and fit in
But we need to all realize that while some can fit in
That almost all of us are afraid that we don’t relate
That we don’t fit in





~The moments I get 2 bask in ur love. Brief moments of time come 2 mind 2 see me through. Dancing smiles awake as we see life through others eyes. While we hide our love from the existence of our minds. I feel ur touch when u are nowhere in sight. I hear ur voice in my ear telling me 2 do what’s right. I feel ur stare as u dream of being closer to me. And yet this simple love through fantasy will only happen our dreams.
Love 💘
NLSmith 2017